Tag: fear

UNSUBSCRIBE

UNSUBSCRIBE

How many useless emails do you get on a daily basis? I’m always one for a deal, so I seem to find myself signing up for an email discount, and subsequently receiving multiple emails, sometimes daily from the same places about things I neither want nor need.

I find myself almost every morning, weeding out all of those meaningless emails to find the few good ones that actually contain valuable information for my life. Years upon years of spending time reading through subject lines and deleting thousands upon probably millions of emails, and today, just today, I unsubscribed. Thinking it would be too much of a hassle to unsubscribe from these countless emails, I just dealt with them because I thought I had to.

I “suffered” through the daily bombardment of countless emails unnecessarily! All that I had to do was simply scroll to the bottom of the email, and hit that joyous word UNSUBSCRIBE. It was much simpler than I thought, and got me thinking about some other things I was possibly avoiding because they seemed complicated, when they might actually be quite simple.

Maybe that means actually writing that thank you letter that you meant to send to your grandma

  • calling that friend that you lost touch with
  • cleaning up the mess in the sink (it will probably take less than 2 minutes- you can do it!)
  • Folding the clothes
  • Saying you’re sorry

Sometimes, we build things up in our heads to make them scary and huge, when a simple action can rid us of the worry and anxiety we create for ourselves.

If it actually ends up being bigger, sometimes the simple act can be a good start, and makes it easier to act again, and again, and again.

Unsubscribe.

What is your first response?

What is your first response?

My husband and I met at the nonprofit where we work and are choosing to live in North Omaha to intentionally see the reality of there one day being no inner city in Omaha, NE.

We live in a “lighthouse” where we want to build community and spread love and hope so the people around us can reach their full God-given potential.

Recently we were driving home around 9pm and as we are pulling up to the house, we see two individuals digging through our trash. Immediately I felt this creeping sense of fear and surprise. Why would someone be digging through my trash?! What could they possibly be trying to find? Information? Food? Cans to sell and get a little cash?

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Fear in His Hands

Fear in His Hands
Oh Lord please forgive me for deep down in my heart
I’ve realized what I’ve harboured almost from the very start. 
See I’ve always had plenty, yes, more than enough,
but somehow I still worry that one day I’ll have none. 
So I fret and I fear of the future trials to come.
And work and save up to pay for the potentially large sums. 
I work day to day, honorable enough I am sure, 
but, see, my motives are not always very pure. 
For somewhere along the way I have wrongly presumed,

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My fear killed a mouse

For Easter, we had thousands of Easter eggs filled with candy for the kids to hunt at our block party. In the midst of the chaos, some eggs were left behind. Thus, everyone in the office had more than enough candy to go around. Of course I wanted to have some for easy access and didn’t want to look like a pig eating all this candy, so I put some in my drawer. 
We have had nice before, it happens with older buildings. But I thought for some reason that with all of the traps laying around they would somehow disappear. Boy was I wrong. 

There was a mouse eating the candy in my drawer. I heard it and it jumped out of the drawer into another drawer. When I opened that drawer, it jumped out and ran behind my desk. I was so scared. I cleaned out all of my drawers and found mouse poop in about half of them. I threw all of the candy away and waited. It was behind my desk and I was just waiting for it to come out. 

Finally it ran out from behind my desk and dashed behind my co workers desk. I was not about to have that, I wanted this thing gone. I was going to find it and get it away from me. Since I knew it was behind the desk, and I couldn’t see it, I pulled the desk out. Still unable to see anything, I pulled it out some more. Now this desk was not one of those light flimsy little desks. This was an old heavy desk that weighed at least one and a half time my own weight. But I moved it and inched it out. I go to look in all the cracks and see these eyes staring up at me. Not knowing if it was dead or alive, I pushed the corner of that desk further against the floorboard. Somehow, I still don’t even understand how, I had squished it against the wall and killed it. 

My fear moved me to take action and the impossible happened. 

This was not a big mouse. This was the kind of mouse that could fit in a dime sized hole and squeeze underneath doors and such. But somehow I had managed to squish it up against the wall with the right force and timing that it was unable to escape. It was flattened like a pancake. 

I learned something today. Fear is often not a good thing. But, if you let your fear move you to take action, sometimes impossible things, things you never knew you were capable of doing, can happen. 

So if you find within yourself a fear that you cannot contain, a fear that tries to contain you, channel it into energy. Let it fuel you to get something done, to accomplish good. 
Maybe you will find out just how small it was, smaller than a mouse. Maybe you, too can squash your fears like a pancake.