Grief

A poem I recently wrote for a friend who lost his wife.

For every moment remembered,
every heartfelt “I love you,”
all the days serving the Lord
and the times when you never got bored.
Your kingdom-sized dreams
of mansions side by side,
worshipping the king,
walking streets gold and wide.
You were truly best friends,
a dynamic duo.
And as your heart mends,
I pray God gives you hope.

There is more awaiting you,
all those tears will be gone.
Those dreams that you grew
are so very close,
Longer than you may like
but closer than you know,
just a little while longer,
and you will see that kingdom glow.

2 Corinthians 4:17-18
For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, 18 as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

Prayer changes…

Prayer changes…

People… places…things… attitudes… ideas… you… ME!

 

The list goes on and on. Prayer is a powerful weapon and tool because it puts us in communication with the Most Powerful One!

 

Through my many 21 years (ha!) I’ve realized something (and am still realizing it): I can’t change people. As much as I try to persuade and manipulate (oh, so hard to admit at times)… It just won’t happen. However, I have found something that does work! PRAYER! I pray when someone is being unreasonable with me and I don’t want to lash back but know that God needs to be in the middle of it. I pray when I am the one being unreasonable and ask God to change my heart and desires to match up with His, so I can be loving and kind.

 

Prayer works miracles big and small! I often will say little prayers that may seem like nothing at the time but when I look back, I see just how much God has answered all of my seemingly petty prayers! Just the other day, I asked my friend about something that didn’t seem like a big deal but ended up being a big deal. After praying for several minutes as I went about my day-knowing that I was in the right, I decided to let it go because I knew that I wasn’t going to be the one changing her mind. Here’s the amazing little miracle: God changed her mind. She came to me in humility and love and told me it was ok and that she was sorry. She had been praying as well and followed the prompting of the Holy Spirit to respond in love. I LOVE when God does this!

 

The same kind of thing has happened countless times with my boyfriend. We may have a disagreement or conflict about something (shocking I know) and I will submit it to the Lord because there is nothing I can do. In some way or another, his mind or mine was changed or attitude or perspective on whatever the issue may be and we were able to resolve the conflict with ease.

 

Now I know I’m using examples of others being changed, but what about me?! I’ve been changed through prayer! Whether it was through the prayers of my parents or my boyfriend or loving friends, I know that on more than one occasion I have had to recognize and admit my selfishness and ask for forgiveness.

 

So?! What does this have to do with those people who aren’t inclined to the prompting of the Holy Spirit?! He changes them too! At some point or another, we all were not inclined to the Holy Spirit but he softened our hearts anyway and drew us to our heavenly Father. Be faithful in prayer and lift it all up to the Lord because he hears you.

 

When do we pray?

Always

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

16 “Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”

 

If we don’t have the words?
The Holy Spirit does!

Romans 8:26-27

26 “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.”

 

We have no excuse!

 

PS- I would love to hear how God has used prayer in your life to change a situation, a person, yourself, or anything else!

Amazed at Love

Today, I am amazed. I am amazed at love. I went and saw a movie tonight with my friend. It was called “If I Stay” and portrayed a young woman with a love of music and of course she fell in love and there were family dynamics and such—go see it if you like but that’s not my point….

Towards the end of the movie, the girl finds something out about her father that changes everything. You see, up to that point in her life, this girl had thought her father quit his love of playing in a band because of her brother, when in reality, it was because he saw his daughter and how she was so talented in playing the cello that he wanted to be able to give her more. He saw that intrinsic value in his daughter that prompted him to make a sacrifice so he could give her more. It changed everything for her.

Recently, I experienced a similar occurrence. As I was conversing with my mom about something, the topic of my dad’s motorcycle came up. My mom mentioned something about him not having it anymore and continued in the conversation. However, this was news to me as we were not living in the same city anymore. When I asked her why it was gone she said he sold it and when I asked why he sold it she paused, and then said, “well… to pay for your school.” Wow. Just let that sink in for a minute. My dad, who dreamed of having a motorcycle when he was a kid and who worked hard to get that motorcycle and fix it up and take care of it, he sold that motorcycle for ME. His daughter. Whom he loves. I am blown away at the sacrifice and the love all wrapped into that one action. With that one sacrifice, he not only told me that he loved me but he also told me that he believes in me. He believes that I will succeed and that him paying for my school will be a good investment. He also showed me my worth, that no possession, no matter how hard he worked for it or how much care he put into it, he knows that I am more valuable than that. I am his daughter, and he loves me!

I am so blown away at what my earthly father did out of his love and yet, my heavenly father did something even greater, and he didn’t do it just for me, he did it for all of his children. He didn’t just sacrifice his hobby or his favorite vehicle, he sacrificed his own son. Not only did he sacrifice his only son, his son became one of us for about 30 years and lived, really lived and moved and breathed and experienced human life AND died so we could also be called children. So that we could also share that same love and experience the deep joy that comes with knowing that level of love and care.

If I can be so amazed and in tears of joy at how insanely blessed I am to have a father who loves me enough to sell his motorcycle so I can finish my last semester of college, how much more should I be amazed, in awe, completely blown away that I have a father who loves me even more than that?!

Update:

After posting this last night, I received an email this morning with this verse and knew that I had to immediately attach it.

Romans 8:32 “He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?”

AMEN!